last summer i made the transition to having split days off – it was a huge mental shift at first and then ended up being the best decision…
this meant my husband and I would have one day off together. and during the summer it would mean one full family day before the kids went back to their other house…
because of maeci’s craving for quality time i coined thursday afternoons krislyn and maeci day – we’d go get special drinks, walk around target or downtown summerlin, look at wedding venues, go swim — activities to help me get to know this little girl more, hear her heart, listen to her one million questions or observations…
with quarantine, schedules have shifted and well – there isn’t any place to go. until yesterday, we had a few free hours together and i was ready to tackle the daunting riding a bike with no training wheels…
after about 45 mins of attempting, of her saying “this isn’t the day for this, why did I agree to this …” and falling down …
it clicked…
and she took 4 huge strides by herself — my heart completely burst. honestly, this was the first time a feeling rushed through my body of what it might just feel like for moms to truly feel for their kids (i know that sounds tricky – i’ll find better words another day) — either way the feeling was so intense!..
reality is – as a bonus mom it is different. the way you may feel about experiences, different. i love these two humans so much, care for them as though they were my own, only want the best for them…
but it’s different being a bonus mom…and that is okay, because as i’ve said it before I am not here to be their mom — they have one that loves them lots; i am here to be a vessel of joy and encouragement in their life. to champion them as they navigate this freaking tricky world…
and yesterday that is what I was to maeci – i championed and cheered the sh*t out of her. i saw a pure joy in her face when she looked at me screaming she did it!..
this girl has faced a lot of change in her young years and I could not be more proud of how brave and accepting she has been along the way.
maeci girl, thank you for pulling out your courage today and reminding me what it looks like to do so.
